You know what? I'm getting tired of talking about how much I walked or worked out in this blog, and I'm pretty sure you are, too (all five of you intermittent Big Bear Blog readers). So we'll get that out of the way first and move on to other things. Went to the gym Saturday (December 5) because that's when I felt like going this week, worked out my chest, back, shoulders and arms in that order, stepped on the scale and was not surprised to see I'd gained four pounds (now weigh 337). After Thanksgiving and the days that followed, I earned every pound I gained. I took a hiatus from night walks, going to the gym and better food choices and enjoyed myself some fried chicken, chocolate chip muffin tops, honey BBQ Fritos, BBQ potato chips, etc, etc. I thoroughly enjoyed them, too.
But the other day as I sat here writing this blog during lunch, my belt was on its last notch, my pants felt a bit tight in the thighs and I starting to consider that it's time again to start having wheat bagels for breakfast instead of muffins and plain sliced chicken instead of fried. And although I would rather go home, climb into bed and under the covers with my familiars and watch TV until I fall asleep, that would setting a poor precedent. Besides, I've done plenty of that over the past week and a half already and if I let myself, I can very easily slip right back up to 378 (or more) by Spring and I don't want to do that.
It's easier to get out of bed in the morning and go for a walk because all of my defenses and excuses aren't awake yet, but in the evening, there's plenty of "reasons" for me not to set foot back out the door once I've gotten home. It's much easier to lie in bed like a Teddy Bear and be all warm and cuddly, but since I'd prefer to do that with my Bear partner who lives several states away and we won't be vacationing together for awhile, instead I'll brave the cold for a walk and drive to a much warmer gym and be a good Polar bear. Not to be confused with Bi-Polar Bear, by the way (which, depending on who you talk to in the Community, could either be a Bear who's manic-depressive or an older bisexual Bear with graying to white hair! You know, like Santa! (The latter, not the former; remember, he's a jolly ol' elf, and a big ol' Bear to boot.)
Meanwhile, I have managed to steer clear of Christmas cheer for the most part this Yuletide season. Yes, my mother did drag me to see Disney's A Christmas Carol and despite my aversion to most things Jim Carrey (I prefer his serious films like The Majestic and The Truman Show to his slapstick schmuckery), his voice was tolerable, I enjoyed the new 3-D effects and the Ghost of Christmas Present, although clearly in a manic phase, was a Bear showing an abundance of thick and curly chest hair through the front of his festive frockery, assuring me there were some Bears on the animation team much as they were on The Lion King (according to the "making-of" documentary I saw on HBO once).
However, the movie lost me when the Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come (for which Carrey was credited although the Ghost only pointed and never spoke a word!) pointlessly chased Scrooge through the streets of London in a carriage, shrunk him with a magical whip crack so he went gliding down a pipe and then got stuck in the ring of a bed curtain his maid stole from him after his death (even though he had been incorporeal throughout his other visitations). It was all downhill from there; too much disbelief to suspend, and the ending echoed my father's annual sentiment that Christmas is all about commercialism, which is just fine with Pagans like me who don't want to keep Christmas in our hearts all year long. Besides, as I annually tell my sister who believes I became a Witch just to get Yule and Christmas presents (sure, I get Yule presents...on Christmas morning!), all the secular holiday traditions from trimming the Christmas tree to hiding Easter eggs are Pagan in origin.
Speaking of carols that have little to do with Christmas, I did try an alternative to traditional carols I learned of from one of my favorite authors, Laurell K. Hamilton, called "A Very Scary Solstice" from the H.P. Lovecraft Historical Society, and although I did enjoy The Carol of the Olde Ones, it was still a carol, however feral.
The closest I felt for any song this season was Josh Groban's version of "O Holy Night." Mr. Groban's exceptionally beautiful voice had me tearing up in my car one morning and with a little reworking of the lyrics ("in sin and error pining", for example), the song could very well be about the birth of the Sun God (when you're in the minority, sometimes you have to rework things in your own image or you feel left out in the cold.)
I do have some things to be grateful for this Yule besides spending the holiday with my family and welcoming the lengthening days in the New Year (and decade) to come. Although my present temporary position is coming to an end this coming Friday since the University I work for has hired one of their employees to replace me per their policy, the woman who moved forward from this position has another temporary position available while one of her workers will be on maternity leave, and after two weeks of vacation (collecting unemployement), I will begin another six-month position with the Office of Education in the New Year! YAY!
But the other day as I sat here writing this blog during lunch, my belt was on its last notch, my pants felt a bit tight in the thighs and I starting to consider that it's time again to start having wheat bagels for breakfast instead of muffins and plain sliced chicken instead of fried. And although I would rather go home, climb into bed and under the covers with my familiars and watch TV until I fall asleep, that would setting a poor precedent. Besides, I've done plenty of that over the past week and a half already and if I let myself, I can very easily slip right back up to 378 (or more) by Spring and I don't want to do that.
It's easier to get out of bed in the morning and go for a walk because all of my defenses and excuses aren't awake yet, but in the evening, there's plenty of "reasons" for me not to set foot back out the door once I've gotten home. It's much easier to lie in bed like a Teddy Bear and be all warm and cuddly, but since I'd prefer to do that with my Bear partner who lives several states away and we won't be vacationing together for awhile, instead I'll brave the cold for a walk and drive to a much warmer gym and be a good Polar bear. Not to be confused with Bi-Polar Bear, by the way (which, depending on who you talk to in the Community, could either be a Bear who's manic-depressive or an older bisexual Bear with graying to white hair! You know, like Santa! (The latter, not the former; remember, he's a jolly ol' elf, and a big ol' Bear to boot.)
Meanwhile, I have managed to steer clear of Christmas cheer for the most part this Yuletide season. Yes, my mother did drag me to see Disney's A Christmas Carol and despite my aversion to most things Jim Carrey (I prefer his serious films like The Majestic and The Truman Show to his slapstick schmuckery), his voice was tolerable, I enjoyed the new 3-D effects and the Ghost of Christmas Present, although clearly in a manic phase, was a Bear showing an abundance of thick and curly chest hair through the front of his festive frockery, assuring me there were some Bears on the animation team much as they were on The Lion King (according to the "making-of" documentary I saw on HBO once).
However, the movie lost me when the Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come (for which Carrey was credited although the Ghost only pointed and never spoke a word!) pointlessly chased Scrooge through the streets of London in a carriage, shrunk him with a magical whip crack so he went gliding down a pipe and then got stuck in the ring of a bed curtain his maid stole from him after his death (even though he had been incorporeal throughout his other visitations). It was all downhill from there; too much disbelief to suspend, and the ending echoed my father's annual sentiment that Christmas is all about commercialism, which is just fine with Pagans like me who don't want to keep Christmas in our hearts all year long. Besides, as I annually tell my sister who believes I became a Witch just to get Yule and Christmas presents (sure, I get Yule presents...on Christmas morning!), all the secular holiday traditions from trimming the Christmas tree to hiding Easter eggs are Pagan in origin.
Speaking of carols that have little to do with Christmas, I did try an alternative to traditional carols I learned of from one of my favorite authors, Laurell K. Hamilton, called "A Very Scary Solstice" from the H.P. Lovecraft Historical Society, and although I did enjoy The Carol of the Olde Ones, it was still a carol, however feral.
The closest I felt for any song this season was Josh Groban's version of "O Holy Night." Mr. Groban's exceptionally beautiful voice had me tearing up in my car one morning and with a little reworking of the lyrics ("in sin and error pining", for example), the song could very well be about the birth of the Sun God (when you're in the minority, sometimes you have to rework things in your own image or you feel left out in the cold.)
I do have some things to be grateful for this Yule besides spending the holiday with my family and welcoming the lengthening days in the New Year (and decade) to come. Although my present temporary position is coming to an end this coming Friday since the University I work for has hired one of their employees to replace me per their policy, the woman who moved forward from this position has another temporary position available while one of her workers will be on maternity leave, and after two weeks of vacation (collecting unemployement), I will begin another six-month position with the Office of Education in the New Year! YAY!
So I will continue to try and balance my eating with exercise (by the weigh, still on a plateau of 337 as of 12/10), enjoy my unemployment and employment and surf the Yuletide through a sea of Christmas. And if it all gets to be too much, screw it; I'll just take a long winter's nap! Happy holidays to all, and to all a good night, woof, and blessed be.
Showing any restraint at this time of year is to be commended. 'Tis the season for overindulgence in all areas. And your ursine instinct is to hibernate in winter - so you're overcoming a lot to go Polar instead of Teddy. (We all tip the scales a little heavier between Thanksgiving and New Year's so don't beat yourself up.)
ReplyDeleteI had the same teary Josh Groban experience while driving. Wow huh? I actually suggested to an agnostic friend that his "O Holy NIght" is alone (almost) enough to make you believe in God. Or to believe in something. Glad to see I'm not alone behind the wheel with tears streaming down my face. Let's hope we don't collide on Josh's big final swell!
I'm a new follower (and fan) so I have some catching-up to do. Here's to 2010 - and health and happiness in the New Year!
Tony